Who's that girl? It's Hannah!

Please tell me about how you’ve always cared about about the children of Africa…

I’m just going to put this out there because it’s really starting to frustrate me. All of these pictures and statuses about Kony 2012 and whatever you’re doing you cannot win. If you’re not getting involved then you’re shunned for being a terrible human being and if you are then you’re following the crowd and being questioned as to how long you’ve cared about conflict and African children. So, here is what I have to say and I can’t repress it anymore…

I support Kony 2012. I know both sides of the argument, I’ve made myself aware and honestly I still fully support the idea behind it. This man is terrible and needs to be stopped. If you don’t support the campaign or don’t want to make yourself aware of it then that’s fine. I respect that choice, people are entitled to do what they like with their life. However, when I see things everywhere saying that if I support Kony 2012 then I’m following the crowd and that if I’m supporting it then I should have to justify myself and tell people how long I’ve cared then I get annoyed, very annoyed intact. I can hold my hands up and say that I watched the video at about 1am of the morning Kony 2012 started to spread worldwide. I was under the impression that it would take a while to become a household name and as soon as I saw the video I wanted to help. I didn’t know anyone else who was supporting it until I checked my Facebook and saw a few more people had started to post about it. However, I’m not trying to make myself look better by saying that. I genuinely care. I have always wanted to go over to Africa to help children who needed help whether that be due to conflict, not having access to education or just not having some of the simple things I had the luxury of being bought up with. That’s why I went to Ghana in 2010 and was lucky to be involved helping a small village and I absolutely adored the children and felt awful leaving them. I’m also planning on going to South Africa in the next few years to do more voluntary work and I want to help in Africa as much as I can in my lifetime. The one downside to this is that whenever I say that I care about Africa I also get the people saying that I’m trying to make myself out to be some kind of saint. My point is that YOU CANNOT WIN. There are always going to be people trying to make themselves out to be the better people, trying to change your opinion because they believe theirs is the correct one and that you’re fool for not agreeing with them.

MAKE YOUR OWN MIND UP.

Please, don’t let anyone dictate your thoughts and opinions because they are what make YOU who you are. I used to shy away from voicing my opinion and having my own voice, now I quite happily stand up for what I believe in and I believe that the positives outweigh the negatives with the issues surrounding Kony 2012. I know some people will argue that I’m wrong until the sun goes down and I really do not care to waste my energy arguing with people. I’m not trying to convert your opinions and beliefs into my own.

I just wanted to get that off my chest because in a way it hurts seeing all this hatred. So what if people haven’t shown a particular interest around a subject like this before? At lest they are NOW and that’s all that matters. If people want to help and support a campaign they believe in then let them.

My life.

I don’t mean to sound like I’m complaining in this post because I honestly have a lovely life. I can’t really complain and a lot of people would look at me and say I should be happy, and I am but I’m really not… I can’t explain it. I feel like there is something HUGE missing in my life and I don’t know what to do. I don’t know if it’s because I’m so unsure about so much right now or something else. I just feel so empty. I think I always feel like I’m not good enough, I can’t post the reasons why but I guess in brief… I feel responsible for a lot of other peoples unhappiness. I’ve told some of the people that I feel that way, others I have not. I think a lot of people would think I’m just attention seeking. I’ve always kind of felt that if I ever opened up that people would feel that way so mostly I just spurt on about really random shit to people. I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I know change is coming and I don’t like the idea of that. Maybe it’s everything. All I know is that I’m not happy and I feel guilty because I have so much to be happy about. I can’t sleep, eat or even function properly. There is always something. When I’m eating I feel like I’m going to get fatter than I already am, when I don’t eat I want to. I can’t sleep until 2am and mornings are a struggle so I sleep and waste my weekends away catching up. I don’t know why I feel so alone. I have so many people around me, but yeah… I’m so fed up with being me. I’m fairly sure most people look at me and laugh… I don’t really conform to what is considered pretty and cool and smart. I’m the weird, insane, awkward and dumb one. Eurgh, this is fucking ridiculous writing this. It’s just, where else do I have to vent? Facebook and Twitter is now dominated by people I don’t particularly care for. All I know is that I know what is important to me and I’ve never been prepared to compromise my values for the sake of fitting in. However, I now don’t know what I want and all I’m left with is what other people are telling me. It’s shite.

32 minutes of battery left. Let’s do this.

1: Apart from tumblr, what do you like to do in your spare time?
College work, go to college, think about how I’m behind with college, watch TV, eat, cuddle with my Jonny.
2: Name a favourite of each: food, drink, colour.
Pasta, milk, navy blue.
3: If you married rich and your spouse gave you $100,000 a week, what would you spend it on?
Clothes and food. I think I’d get bored though and probably give a lot of it to friends/family/charity.
4: Name a favourite of each: book, movie, tv show.
The Fault In Our Stars, The Notebook, New Girl.
5: If you were given the opportunity to spend 48 hours with absolutely anyone (living or dead), who would you spend it with and what would you do?
Adam Young and we’d eat good food, he’d sing and we’d talk about lots.
6: Name a LEAST favorite of each: food, drink, colour.
Mushrooms, warm milk and lilac.
7: What do you spend most of your money on?
Shit. Not literally but it always disappears from me going out and doing random shit. Probably clothes though.
8: What kind of underwear do you prefer wearing?
Depends really…
9: Name a LEAST favourite of each: book, movie, tv show.
Urr, I don’t tend to read/watch things I don’t like so I don’t know :/
10: If you were sat on a plane beside your favorite celebrity, what would you do?
Fan girl. After calming down I’d probably explain that I loved them, ask for a photo or something and yeah. Fangirl.
11: What is the strangest thing you have in your room? (You are not allowed to explain why you own it.)
Umm, looking around now… an empty jar.
12: What is a weird habit you have, or people have told you have. (Weird, not bad. No nail biting or any of that nonsense.)
I have to click my joints in unison and in a pattern. I’m quite OCD in a way. Like I’ll draw a pattern on my leg, which is always made up of straight lines/dots and I have to identically match it on my other leg with my other hand. Same with joints, teeth or just in my mind. I’ve done it for years now, it’s a bit weird. I feel off balance if I don’t do it though.
13: What would you consider to be the biggest insult to yourself?
Just people being rude, disrespective. Also, if people are rude to my family I get annoyed too.
14: What are five things you absolutely have to have in your dream house?
An amazing bedroom with a huge bed and balcony, a jacuzzi, an awesome kitchen, a cinema room and a nice big garden.
15: If you could be reincarnated as any animal, which would you chose and why?
A cat because they sleep and eat a lot. Plus, they’re fluffy and loveable and omg I love cats.
16: Which band (current or past) would you want to go on tour* with? (*Travel with, not preform with.)
Owl City, his ATBAB world tour would have been amazing to follow.
17: Name a favorite of each: band, album, song.

• Owl City, Torches (Foster The People), Now or Never (Madina Lake).

18: Why is your favourite band your favourite?
I would say Owl City but I class Adam as a solo artist really :/ Umm, at present my favourite band is Foster The People because they’re sexy, their music is sexy and I love how they’re bringing their own style into the music world.
19: How many concerts have you attended? Which was your favourite? Least favourite? If none, who do you want to see live the most?
Urr, 19 gigs… Owl City was my favourite for obvious reasons. He was just spectacular live.
20: What is one of your favourite song lyrics? (Who is it by?)
“Raise up to your ability” - Foster The People, Houdini.
21: Who do you ship?
Huh?
22: What band merch do you own? If any, whose is it and when did you get it? If none, whose do you wish you owned?
Forever the sickest kids - sweatband, few years back at a gig. Elliot Minor - hoodie and shirt, at a gig a few years back. Loads of programmes from old gigs like SClub. I even have an Sclub scarf and a Busted shirt. Umm, not sure… I also have 2 Owl City shirts which I got online. 
23: How did you learn of the band that is currently your favourite?
Heard ‘Pumped Up Kicks’ before it was big. Not just saying that, honestly did. Looked at some of their other stuff, loved them then everyone adored Pumped Up Kicks and I LOL’d.
24: What celebrity do you idolize the most?
Umm, not sure…
25: Which member from which band would you most want to lather in nutella?
Mark Foster from Foster The People…

Hi, I’m horribly ill.

*flop onto bed and sleep for eternity*